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it's an hour to new year 2010, but my heart still full of sorrow and sadness.. Tobe honest i hate new year eve... It's reminds me bout my mom. My mom pass away in new year eve 1995..

December 31st 1994 at 11.00 PM.. She passed away because of disease, she got stroke and diabetes.. she got sick almost a year before passed away.. and at the time she passed away i didn't feel that she's gone

I watched my favorite models on tv at that day... i scream when i saw them, i couldn't feel she's struggling to live at the hospital and finally give up, leave me and my brother alone..

Since that time i always felt sorry for her, i always wish that i could spend my new year eve alone just to remind her and send her a pray.. I hope she listen to me and give me her apologise..

To mom, even you are not here with me again, but you always on my dream, in my mind and heart, i always love you and i'm sorry for all the naughty that made you sad.. I love you MOM...